Friday, October 9, 2009

Singin' After Midnight...

My roommate has now got me hooked on Kareoke, which is kinda funny with me being the shy, introverted person that I am. While I did sing in talent shows and such as a kid, as an adult I've always just been a car/shower/in apartment by myself singer, so I never thought I'd really get up the nerve to try it in front of people again. But I gotta admit, it's really beginning to grow on me. I freakin LOVE it! Now I catch myself listening to the radio and thinking, "Oh! I gotta try that one next time!!"

Thursday night is Kareoke night at this little comfortable neighborhood tavern place nearby. While I love all kinds of music, my voice/style just seems to fit the country genre the best (ha, big shock, I know...). Last night I even went old school country for the first time and did the Patsy Cline version of "Walkin' After Midnight" which I think might be my new favorite. Another one I like to do now is "Kerosene" by Miranda Lambert.... partly because I had that song on constant repeat when it first came out, and also because I love to see people's faces when the quiet girl gets up and sings a song that involves cheating, shooting, and lighting things on fire. (Next time I'll have to do Miranda's "Gunpowder & Lead".... haha).

Yep, it's always the quiet ones who surprise you. (LOL).

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Thankful

It’s now almost officially been three years since I left California, so I’ve been doing a lot of thinking these days about the year I left and why I came here, and what has changed since I have (um, everything?). Looking back on it, it seems crazy by all accounts. I have no blood relatives here. I knew a grand total of 3 people in the entire state when I first moved here in the fall of 2006. I’m still not entirely sure why I did it, only that I just wanted to try it, and I just randomly wound up coming to Dallas in August of 2006 and decided when the plane landed at DFW airport this was it. I flew back, packed up what I could, and drove out in October. I had lived in the Bay Area for as long as I could remember and wanted to try living somewhere completely different (not to mention - a lot cheaper, especially a couple years ago), even if it was just for awhile.

The last two years or so in California had been a little chaotic. I had married young (while I was still in school) and while I won’t go into all the details here - it didn‘t work out, to say the least. Up until that point in my life, everything had been planned out. I’d never done anything remotely spontaneous. I’d never truly lived on my own and was still dependent on other people (my ex, my family, etc) to get by -- financially and emotionally. I really didn’t know squat about squat looking back on it now, to say the least. It was unfortunate to learn that lesson in such a painful way, and that year that followed was a difficult one but it really did make me a lot stronger and optimistic in the long run. (I did overdo the partying during the first year or so, but fortunately nothing *too* bad -- No police record, for instance. Not that I know of anyway.) I was also very blessed with a lot of really good people in my life right at the time that all went down, who were definitely not there by accident. It really forced me to grow up, stand on my own and let go, and just trust with all the faith I had during that difficult time that everything indeed happens for a reason and it would turn out for the better. And it ultimately did, and then some. It was hard, but in the end - I consider it all a blessing.

My parents moved to Washington State about a year or so later to start a new life, and so I just decided to try the same thing, different location. Moving out here on my own was one of the most adventurous and scary things I ever did. It could have been a total disaster…. but it wasn’t. I found I reconnected with God again and experienced that love in ways I could not have even imagined through the kindness and love of my adopted “Texas family” made up of a network of people I met through work, through church, through volunteering, and other avenues of life. I let go of the old hurts and bitterness I left California with, and experienced the power of forgiveness - for others, for myself. For that I am eternally grateful. That spontaneous, crazy decision definitely changed everything -- for the better.

I don’t even remember what I thought my life was going to be like here. Only that I’m sure it’s quite a bit different than I originally thought it would be, though that’s life I suppose. My original plans or ideas have gone by the wayside. The silly things I used to worry about before don’t matter a whole lot anymore. And in a weird way, being so far away from family and my longtime friends on the West Coast also made me love and appreciate them all the more. Life is ultimately unpredictable and can take so many unexpected turns, so I’m not saying I’ll never move back, of course. Never say never, though I have no plans or intentions to do that anytime soon. (Though as the saying goes of course, “If you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans…”)

So now with this fall season marking my 3rd anniversary here, I am so grateful for these past three years, and for everyone who has been a part of this interesting journey. Love you all! (Or should I say: “Luv Y’all!)

Friday, August 28, 2009

What Was Your First Job?

Since I haven't had much entertainment and/or drama to update my blog with lately (I know, sorry), I'm stealing Livejournal's Writers Block question today and cross-posting it onto Blogger. Feel free to post your own responses in the comments. Love to hear them!

What Was Your First Job?

Monkey Wards when I was 16... at Westgate Mall. I worked in the women's dept doing the registers and fitting rooms. It was a summer job... I think they were already bankrupt or close to it by then and the registers were probably older than I was, so they would freeze and lock up constantly. Especially on sale days. There were some fun people who worked there though... I definitely learned a lot from it, and our store manager was a really nice guy. They wound up going out of business within a year or two after that though.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Dreams & Dancing in the 00's

I realized today that we are 5 months away from a new decade. I wonder what "label" this decade will have...it's not as easy as "the 90's" "the 80's" etc... I kinda like the "double-0's" but maybe that's just me. So what I've decided to do is to read through my journals from 2000-2009. This may take awhile, there is a lot of ground to cover, and mostly anything prior to mid-2006 I haven't even wanted to read. One of the best things about journaling regularly is that it makes it really obvious (many times painfully so) how much you have grown and how far you've come on all levels- emotionally, spiritually, intellectually. In the year 2000 I went through all my 1990's journals and wrote about it, I remembered how weird and entertaining it was.

So far I've only made it 1/4 through 2000 (January-April) and I'm already annoyed. I know I was 17, but still.... was I really that annoying? It's all about this guy I crushed forever in high school and how I was convinced that one day, he would suddenly fall in love with me and we would get married and have babies. Um, yeah. I think I OD'ed on chick flicks back then. Live and learn. And then the other half of the journal is about going to see Conan O'Brien's show in NYC which I babbled on for about a hundred pages. As mentioned previously, Conan was my celebrity crush (ok, and still kinda is, to a less fanatical extent). It was sorta funny to read that part though... I was sitting in the front row at his show and he came out for the warm-up, dancing with this little slow hip-swaying motion right by my chair. My poor teenage brain just about exploded. It obviously effected me. I wrote about it quite a bit. LOL

I haven't read through these ones in looong time, so I'm sure some other interesting stuff is in there... if you have journals/blogs, I'd recommend doing this also if you can. Even just for fun!

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Weather Relief Soon...

I leave for the WA coast Saturday, July 25th and then come back Saturday, August 1st.

Being in the Pacific Northwest sounds refreshing especially because we're all triple digits in Dallas-Ft Worth right now. Today it is supposed to hit 101, yesterday I think Ft. Worth was about 104, and at 10 pm it was still 97.

I don't even bother paying close attention to the forecasts anymore this time of year. Not like during winter and spring where you have to pay attention to make sure you don't put on the wrong clothes. Aside from the refreshment of an occasional thunderstorm, we'll roast until early September. Then it will be in the 90's until October. "Fall" is pretty short, usually. It happens when the temperature suddenly drops from 85'F to 30'F in about two hours - usually this occurs in November. and then suddenly there are naked trees and leaves everywhere. I know how this works by now!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Remember The Time

I hesitated to post this because the Michael Jackson media coverage has been major overkill (nothing wrong with tributes, obviously, but analyzing the 911 tape, posting the death certificate, play-by-play analysis of the funeral.... and pretty much everything that's been on CNN in the last week - so not necessary) So if you're tired of it, feel free to skip over this blog.

I think the reason people react so strongly to a famous musician's death is because of how music is so closely associated with our emotions, and the way certain songs from the past instantly bring back vivid memories and the way we felt back then. Even though I wasn't an MJ fanatic, I still knew many of his songs of course, and appreciated his music and what he did as an artist. And while watching the memorial and all the tributes I realized I had quite a few funny memories involving his songs.

When I was preschool, I was sitting at a table with a little boy and we were coloring - this was probably sometime around 1987 or '88. The little boy started coloring wildly outside of the lines, and started singing, "I'm bad, I'm bad, you know it..." I had no idea what that even was, except that I thought it was a cool song so I decided to sing with it too. The teacher was pretty quick to shut that down and told us to sing a song about being good, not a song about being "bad."This is probably one of my earliest memories I even have of anything, and Michael Jackson was involved. Go figure.

A couple years later, when I was in 2nd grade, my school at the time had a dance aerobics instructor come once a week. All the elementary school kids would pour into the cafeteria and we got to spend an hour dancing and exercising. The class was lead by this buff guy named Jerome who had day-glo exercise shorts and long braids that he pulled back into a loose ponytail. Needless to say, Jerome was pretty hot by 1991 standards. I still remember how cool I thought that class was, especially since Jerome would play actual music that was popular at the time (age-appropriate, obviously) and not the little kid music for babies. We would all dance around and shout. Two songs I remembered he played every week were "Remember The Time" and "Black or White." To this day, whenever I hear those songs, I feel happy and want to dance around like a little kid again, and remember Jerome and the exercise class. Those are my two favorite songs by Michael Jackson even still, because of the happy memory associated with them. So wherever you are Jerome, I hope you're still rockin' the MJ with your bad self, and your kids' aerobics class.

Even later on in my life.... I remember when "You Are Not Alone" came out when I was entering my teen years during a pretty rough time. I remember years after that, sitting in a jacuzzi with my friend Eva, drinking mudslides and singing along with "Billie Jean" (definitely one of the coolest - if not THE coolest - pop songs ever, musically speaking) after we'd both ended long-term relationships. I think she even recorded me doing the "hee-hee" on her cell phone.

The first time I hung out with John at his apartment after we first started dating (July of last year), that same song came on the radio. He started dancing around like a madman and moonwalking like a champ. It was then that I realized any MJ song has this effect on him - especially that one. So from then on, whenever I'd hear MJ, I'd always think of John. I even had a MJ ringtone for him for awhile. John was the first person I called when the news broke on the radio, and he was literally in tears. :(

So that's my small tribute to Michael Jackson.... one of millions I'm sure. R.I.P.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Well, it HAD been a mild spring...

The NWS hasn't confirmed it yet, but it appears a tornado touched down in the Flower Mound area last night. Not a big one, thankfully - but still with crazy winds like nobody's business. I posted a couple cell phone pics on my Facebook of the aftermath... I'll try to get more after work if I see anything, and I have some more of the omnious clouds on my digital camera at home. There is a soccer goal post from the local Y hanging off a bush behind my office right now. Thankfully, I've yet to hear of any major injuries or deaths from insurance customers or friends or on the news. There are toppled trees, branches and fence and roof parts all over the place though. Several neighborhoods are still without power. I was pulling pieces of roof shingle off of my car this morning. Most of our insurance customers who have called today so far are reporting roof damage, skylights and windows breaking, and trees falling into their homes or cars. Some trees also came down on cars in our apartment complex. Fortunately, it looks like they were all smaller trees so hopefully no one's car was in need of major repair.

It was so wild... seriously... probably one of the worst storms I've been in since moving to Texas in 2006. I was on the balcony trying to get a video of the cloud rotation outside (I'd probably be a storm chaser if I had the cajones for it) when a HUGE gust of wind sent my rooommate Dawn and I sprinting back inside the apartment. Too bad that in my panic I forgot to save the video - it was probably hilarious. *rotating clouds, followed by a whoosh and rain splatters on the lense* "@#@$!%#$##!!!" *camera turns back toward patio door and bounces inside apartment*

My cat, Starr, was actually smart enough to go inside the bathroom cabinet under the sink. A very safe place for him to be, when you think about it. My roommie's two cats, however, were all up in the windows, wanting to go outside. We tried to put them in the bathroom but they ran out before we could close the door. LOL ("Fine, you idiots!" was her response). We stayed in the kitchen area, near the utility room, with our wine-in-a-box. (we're real high class over here) until it was over.

The thunder/lightning/rain has been nonstop, though the tornado threat is pretty much gone for the time being. I swear it's been going on since yesterday around 6:30 pm. I slept for about 3 hours, if that. At least I had just gotten a couple "Big Love" DVD's from Netflix to keep me occupied (yes, I know... a guilty pleasure ok?). And there's been nothing but claims and coverage questions since I got into work this morning. I hope it stops at 5 so I can sleeeeeeep. At least stop for a few hours? But here's to being thankful that everyone is ok!